Excuse the typos as I’m writing with half a brain due to the concoctions scientists devise. My chemo brain has a film of grease, a layer of cloudy with a chance of hairballs. Excuse the dark wit as I am writing you from chemo jail. It’s sunny outside and 73 degrees. This is April in Seattle so….I’m going a bit crazy in here.
Post chemo jail, my mind will be fuzzy and I might even walk like a drunken sailor, but it’s four blocks to my mom’s apartment, and sunny, so I am walking.
Walking in a fog, feeling hungover, even on this easier treatment I wonder how people go shopping, run errands or really, carry a conversation after chemo. I overhear all of these grand plans in the chairs next to me but I’ve never felt the reality that some of you feel. Seriously? You really go grocery shopping and cook dinner after chemo? I can barely eat dinner! This must be a front, I always think to myself. Today I got to walk to and from chemo in the glorious sunshine and that was a pure gift. My 15 month old escorted me, with his Nonna, another lovely gift. Still, I am fogged over and warning those who received email or read this that it has been sent from my chemo jail…I really should change the sign off tag on my iPad.
keepthecalm 
I recently attended a breast cancer retreat where a couple of the women had just had chemo a few days before. All I could think was “Geeze, I couldn’t even get out of bed after my chemo, and here they are participating in this event!” It is different for each of us. What kept me going was the mantra, “This too shall pass.” And it will. God Bless you.
Cancer Warrior
http://www.perksofcancer.com
Thanks warrior woman! I will add that to my mantra….this too shall pass. We do all have a unique experience and it is nice to hear everyone’s perspective. Blessings your way.
Oh…chemo jail…so true.
Hugs to you. xoxo
u r funny, jelebelle!
A tough road from that Foggy Bottom, but you’ll make it. As Cancer Warrior said, “This too shall pass.” Thank God for time, which does truly help put distance between chemo-jail and our present state. xx
Thank you…all of the encouragement helps move forward on the tough road.
I always felt AWESOME right after chemo (the steriods!)…then, 24 hours later, like clockwork—I’d be too fatigued to do anything but sleep on the couch. I like the analogy of being surrounded by bars. It DOES feel like jail–and there isn’t even getting out for good behavior. 😡